It is Christmas Eve, and as I think about this day I realize all that I am thankful for. I cannot express in words how grateful I am that God has sent His Son to earth so that we may be with Him forever. I overflow with thankfulness that Jesus came down to us and died so that our sins may be taken away. By simply believing in Him, we are given the precious gift of eternal life. It is a beautiful, breathtaking thing. And for that I am thankful. It is awesome that all around the world people are celebrating Jesus' birth today. In response to this gift, I pray that I may love others like Christ loves us. But, how does Christ love us?
Last night, while I was feeding Ellie at 5 am, God reminded me of something very important. He LOVES me. All of these years I have been trying to be likeable for everyone else, but that whole time God has been crazy about me just as He created me. He has created each of us in His own unique way, and we can live our lives for Him best by being
ourselves. During the years of my life when I have tried to be more like this person, or that person, God has always loved me
exactly as myself. My smiley, spontaneous, caring, multi-tasking self. He has given me freedom from the pressure of trying to be like someone else. I have confidence that the best way I can show my thankfulness for God and what He has done for me is to be myself. Just as He has created me. Therefore, I will not be afraid to do what God has put in my heart, whether that is to be a mother, a teacher, or a friend. He will enable me to do what He knows I can do best in serving Him. I rejoice in knowing that God loves us just as He created us!
Today, I reflect on last Christmas Eve. It was an emotional day, as I had complications with Ellie, just being seven weeks pregnant. Even though we had only known for a short time, we already had a fierce attachment to this unknown baby. It was hard to walk into the hospital that day, unsure of what the outcome would be. We were overjoyed when we saw her little heart beating on that ultrasound, her arms and legs showing as little knobs on the amoeba shape they called "baby". It was the best Christmas gift, knowing that she was still growing strong. It is amazing to see that a year later she is here. A bundle of joy, smiling, giggling, the perfect personality that God has created in her. I think about how much God loves her. He is crazy about her. So crazy about her that He sent His Son to earth, as a baby, to die, just for Her. I pray that she may always know that. We have a Father who loves us more than we can imagine, and for that, I am thankful today. Merry Christmas!
"For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor,
Mightly God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace."
Isaiah 9:6